“Just Ask God or Not”

           
Warning! …..This is about God and the Church, so if you are offended when someone writes about this topic, please stop here. To proceed any further might cause peace serenity and happiness and if you are content in your misery and resentment I don’t want to say anything that will spoil it for you….
    
Every once and a while I get the urge to visit a Church. It’s usually when something good happens and I want to thank God personally, I make a personal appearance. I accept it when bad things happen because its usually my fault and it involves a bad decision. When those bad things happen I don’t blame God but that is a whole other story….I was brought up a Catholic. I even went to a Catholic school…… Well, a while ago I asked my God for something. You could say I prayed for it…I don’t usually do that unless its something nice for someone else. This time I asked for something for myself. It was for something impossible and I would have never thought in a million years that it would happen…Honestly there was no chance, not even a one in a million chance for this to happen to me…I have to be very careful what I ask for so I don‘t ask for much.  Of coarse this depends what point of view you have…A while ago at weak moment I asked for something that can only be described as beautiful and it was nothing short of a miracle when it happened…But that is not what this is about. This is about when I got that urge to visit a Church to say thank you and to try to figure out why this wonderful thing would happen to me. I decided to stop in a Church to see if maybe I could figure out why this happened? I should have known better…I happened to be in Norwich Connecticut the other day when I decided to stop in the Sacred Heart Church on Merchants Ave.….I parked the car, got out and walked across the lawn only to find all the doors locked. I even checked the side doors.…My first emotion was disappointment ….Why weren’t the doors unlocked so I could go in and meditate? Here I am standing outside and I am feeling locked out. This is not one of those things where you just go to another Church. This was special….I was upset for about an hour, until I thought about it for a while…I thought…Why should I ask God why this happened? Who am I to ask why? A prayer is a prayer even if you only think about it. Let it happen without asking why! Enjoy it while you can. I will use each moment of the gift that God has given me. I will be saying thank you for a long time to come…