"New Day"

 The tourists and lookie-loos will be gone soon and my beaches will be vacant again..  My new thing now to do is go to the beach and listen to my book on CD on my phone. I have a comfortable new low beach chair and all I have to do is lay back and listen.. I got here in July and have not installed my Air Conditioner.. I've gotten three pretty low electric bills so far.  That’s how I count how long I've been home… What does that mean? I don't know.. Its getting cooler I guess. I'm on the sun comes in the morning side of the building so its naturally cooler now in my apartment.

        I've thought about it but I haven't been back to the old place. That's a good thing. I do miss a few people there but I really don't want to be in that area anymore.. Here I have been finding new shortcuts through the woods where there is no traffic. Speed seems to be the way everyone does things now-a-days so no traffic in the woods is the way to go.. Just like the old days. No highways where everyone seems to be going 95 mph plus..  Takes a little longer but I love it… Its true my life is changing for the good I think.. I don't look at what happened to me as a bad thing. It was a tough learning experience.. My loving Dad was right as usual when he said, "You learn by your mistakes…

"Time"

         Settled in and comfortable, back to doing things like the old days. Got writers block sort of but at least you have my Tweets once and a while.. Don't know if I like this new page but I'll give it a try.. Weird stuff going on in this world of ours.. I don't know what to think.. Thank God I'm at the age where I know I won't have to deal with the future they are going to have.. I mean I'm going to be around for a while longer but I don't think its going to be a nice place in 50 or so years.. However, I was thinking that the earth has been here for millions of years its going to be here for a while longer good or bad..  I like the way things were, not where they are going.. This internet has given us more knowledge than we need. Things are happening too much to fast. The kids with those hand held computers and phones. Crime and violence everywhere, its really sad. I have no solution's or ways around these things. Just sadness and a constant question...  Why?

"Racism"

                          Racism is worse than it ever was. It will never stop. Its been going on since the slaves were set free. Changing street names, relocating or knocking down a few statues will never help.. Like banning the Confederate flag, its only going to piss people off..The fighting will get worse and people will die.. Just remember , “No history is mute. No matter how much they own it, break it, and lie about it, human history refuses to shut its mouth. Despite deafness and ignorance, the time that was continues to tick inside the time that is.” - Eduardo Galeno

"All About Those Books" MDIHS Library

"To Whom it May Concern"

            I'm at a the part of my life when at times I think, will this be the last time I'll be doing this, will this be my last move, will this be the last trip I take and so on and so forth… Through the years I have discovered that as you get older, although I don't project into the future, acceptance to what is going to happen in the future becomes part of the thinking process.. Thank God I have learned to let go of the past and keep moving forward. I am always learning by my past mistakes.. Sometimes it takes years to realize that once that bridge is crossed, there is no going back. That brings me to why I am saying these things..

           The other day I received an anonymous, "I don't like you e-mail" from someone who can't forget the past, someone who won't let it go.. So to whom it may concern. You know who you are. Let me start by saying I got sober 40 years ago. Yes, you may think it is a Miracle and it is but not drinking doesn't mean instant brains and because of my drinking my mental growth was stunted and it has taken years for me grow mentally and spiritually as in the case of people who suffered because of the use and abuse of alcohol.  There have been times during the past 40 years that I have said and done things that were not appropriate and yes, I did hurt a few people as time went on. I am so sorry for that however I did not like that you mentioned my AA friends. You know absolutely nothing about them or how it works.  Just remember this, I could have never stayed sober for 40 years without a Higher-power and the support from my friends in AA. They have taught me to be the person I am today. They are my life and the best thing that has ever happened to me..  Again, I want to apologize if I have hurt you in any way… Thank you for understanding but remember "For some of us, it takes a little Longer"..

"Its Almost Time"

This is the newly repaired walkway where I am moving....

By the time you read this it will 7 days till move time and I can't wait. As each day goes by the anticipation gets greater. I told some of my friends here I feel weird about leaving now because I am going to miss them. I've had many hugs and people have shed tears for me because I'm leaving but I must remember I'm off to a more modern place. A home like environment where staff cares about people and helps them in this not so nice world.. I won't shoot this place down anymore because its served its purpose. It was an adventure and just another learning experience.. More on my travels in the future.. I'm thinking about going to South Carolina this summer because I really like it there.. Not to live but to visit some friends that I made when I was there that live in that area.. My life is amazing and I thank God everyday that I am still able jump in my Mustang and go anywhere I want at the drop of a hat.. Stay tuned for more of my adventures in the future..

"Resentment"

               Someone was angry at me at something that happened about 10 years ago and sent me a scathing EM anonymously.  I know who sent it.. This was my response.

        Wow, criticism at something that happened before 2009. Talk about holding a grudge. However, you are not the first one to call me out. There have been others. I don't usually respond to anonymous criticism but thank you for your feedback and I truly and honestly want to apologize for anything I have done with my words or actions to hurt you and yours.. I'm glad you got to share what you did and I hope you feel better. I will pray for you and I really hope you lose all that negative energy.

Good luck and thank you... ~Lar

Comment ...... Many people ruin their health and their lives by taking the poison of bitterness, resentment and unforgiveness. Matthew 18:23-35 tells us that if we do not forgive people, we get turned over to the torturers. If you have a problem in this area or have ever had one, I'm sure you bear witness with what I'm saying. It's torture to have hateful thoughts toward another person rolling around inside your head.