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Friday, May 12, 2017

"To Whom it May Concern"

            I'm at a the part of my life when at times I think, will this be the last time I'll be doing this, will this be my last move, will this be the last trip I take and so on and so forth… Through the years I have discovered that as you get older, although I don't project into the future, acceptance to what is going to happen in the future becomes part of the thinking process.. Thank God I have learned to let go of the past and keep moving forward. I am always learning by my past mistakes.. Sometimes it takes years to realize that once that bridge is crossed, there is no going back. That brings me to why I am saying these things..
           The other day I received an anonymous, "I don't like you e-mail" from someone who can't forget the past, someone who won't let it go.. So to whom it may concern. You know who you are. Let me start by saying I got sober 40 years ago. Yes, you may think it is a Miracle and it is but not drinking doesn't mean instant brains and because of my drinking my mental growth was stunted and it has taken years for me grow mentally and spiritually as in the case of people who suffered because of the use and abuse of alcohol.  There have been times during the past 40 years that I have said and done things that were not appropriate and yes, I did hurt a few people as time went on. I am so sorry for that however I did not like that you mentioned my AA friends. You know absolutely nothing about them or how it works.  Just remember this, I could have never stayed sober for 40 years without a Higher-power and the support from my friends in AA. They have taught me to be the person I am today. They are my life and the best thing that has ever happened to me..  Again, I want to apologize if I have hurt you in any way… Thank you for understanding but remember "For some of us, it takes a little Longer"..

Monday, May 1, 2017

"Its Almost Time"

This is the newly repaired walkway where I am moving....

By the time you read this it will 7 days till move time and I can't wait. As each day goes by the anticipation gets greater. I told some of my friends here I feel weird about leaving now because I am going to miss them. I've had many hugs and people have shed tears for me because I'm leaving but I must remember I'm off to a more modern place. A home like environment where staff cares about people and helps them in this not so nice world.. I won't shoot this place down anymore because its served its purpose. It was an adventure and just another learning experience.. More on my travels in the future.. I'm thinking about going to South Carolina this summer because I really like it there.. Not to live but to visit some friends that I made when I was there that live in that area.. My life is amazing and I thank God everyday that I am still able jump in my Mustang and go anywhere I want at the drop of a hat.. Stay tuned for more of my adventures in the future..

Monday, April 24, 2017


               Someone was angry at me at something that happened about 10 years ago and sent me a scathing EM anonymously.  I know who sent it.. This my response.

        Wow, criticism at something that happened before 2009. Talk about holding a grudge. However, you are not the first one to call me out. There have been others. I don't usually respond to anonymous criticism but thank you for your feedback and I truly and honestly want to apologize for anything I have done with my words or actions to hurt you and yours.. I'm glad you got to share what you did and I hope you feel better. I will pray for you and I really hope you lose all that negative energy.
Good luck and thank you... ~Lar

Comment ...... Many people ruin their health and their lives by taking the poison of bitterness, resentment and unforgiveness. Matthew 18:23-35 tells us that if we do not forgive people, we get turned over to the torturers. If you have a problem in this area or have ever had one, I'm sure you bear witness with what I'm saying. It's torture to have hateful thoughts toward another person rolling around inside your head.

Tuesday, March 14, 2017


Just remember its the Muslim Terrorists that murdered 3000 people on September 11 that want to infiltrate our country. This is not the 20s, 30's, 40's or 50's. Our country cannot continue to accept undocumented people intent on killing the American people and trying to change our customs and ideals with their primitive Religious ways... Yes, American is the land of the free but not to that element.. These are very dangerous people....

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

"I'm Sorry"

Short apology letter I sent to someone named Lily.........No Lily, I never meant any of those things. I apologize if you took it that way. Are you trying to insult me because I said be careful and to think before getting involved in this kind sex? Do you jump in bed with strangers or people you barely know on a whim or fantasy? Are the cameras running when you do this? Are you promiscuous? The question is, why are you being threatening and oppositional? Do you have guilty conscience? Did something happen?

No I never got a reply...

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

"Historical Terrorist Facts"

          Whether you call Pres. Trump's geographic immigration pause or a temporary ban on travelers from Muslim countries or an unconstitutional executive order. However, it does seem appropriate that some cautionary activity is taking place in light of the partial list of attacks shown below. Muslim aggression against the West. Here are a few selected Muslim aggression's against the West. If these battles had not been won, we would most likely be speaking Arabic and Christianity could be non-existent. Judaism certainly would not exist.
          In 732 A.D., the Muslim Army, which was moving on Paris, was defeated and turned back at Tours, France, by Charles Martell. In 1571 A.D., the Muslim Army/Navy was defeated by the Italians and Austrians as they tried to cross the Mediterranean to attack southern Europe in the Battle of Lepanto.
           In 1683 A.D., the Turkish Muslim Army, attacking Eastern Europe, was finally defeated in the Battle of Vienna by German and Polish Christian armies.
           In 1823 Greece revolted against the Ottoman Empire(Muslim) that held Greece for some 400 years. 1919-1922: the Greco-Turkish War of 1919-1922, known as the Western Front.Turkish War of Independence in Turkey and the Asia Minor Campaign, and also known as the Asia Minor Catastrophe. Fought between Greece and the Turkish National Movement during the partitioning of the Ottoman Empire (Muslim) after World War I between May 1919 and October 1922.

Here are some recent historical facts as far back as 2002 not to be forgotten..

1. In 1968, Robert Kennedy was shot and killed by a Muslim male.

2. In 1972, at the Munich Olympics, Israeli athletes were kidnapped and massacred  by Muslim males.

3. In 1972, a Pan Am 747 was hijacked and eventually diverted to Cairo where a fuse was lit on final approach.  Shortly after landing, it was blown up by Muslim males.

4. In 1973, a Pan Am 707 was destroyed in Rome with 34 people killed when it was attacked with grenades by Muslim males. 1973 Rome airport attacks an hijacking were a set of Palestinian terrorist attacks originating at Leonardo da Vinci Airport-Fiumicino International Airport in Rome Italy, resulting in the deaths of 34 people. The attacks began with an airport terminal invasion and hostage-taking, followed by the firebombing of Pan American World Airways Flight 110.

5. In 1979, the United States Embassy in Iran was taken over by Muslim males.

6. During the 1980s, a number of Americans were kidnapped in Lebanon by Muslim males.

7.  In 1983, the United States Marine barracks in Beirut, Lebanon was blown up by Muslim males. The 1983 Beirut barracks bombings were terrorist attacks that occurred on October 23, 1983, in Beirut Lebanon during the Lebanese Civil War when two truck bombs struck separate buildings housing Multinational Force in Lebanon peacekeepers, specifically against United States and French
service members, killing 241 U.S. and 58 French peacekeepers, six civilians and the two suicide attacker, An obscure group calling itself 'Islamic Jihad
claimed responsibility for the bombings and that the bombings were aimed to get the MNF out of Lebanon.

8.  In 1985, the cruise ship Achille Lauro was hijacked, and a 70-year-old American passenger(Jew) was murdered and thrown overboard in his wheelchair by Muslim males.

9. In 1985, TWA Flight 847 was hijacked at Athens, and a United States Navy who was trying to rescue passengers, was murdered by Muslim males.

10. In 1988, Pan Am Flight 103 was bombed by Muslim males.

11. In 1993, the World Trade Center was bombed for the first time by Muslim males.

12. In 1998, the United States embassies in Kenya and Tanzania were bombed by Muslim males.

13. On Oct 12, 2000 the USS Cole (DDG-67) was bombed at port-side, while it was being refueled in Yemen harbor. Seventeen American sailors were killed and 39 injured in the deadliest attack against a United States naval vessel since 1987. The Muslim terrorist organization al-Qaeda claimed responsibility for the attack.

14. On 09/11/01, four airliners were hijacked by Muslims in USA.  Two of the planes were used as missiles to take down the World Trade Centers.  One plane crashed into the United States Pentagon, and the other plane was diverted and crashed by the passengers.  Thousands of people were killed by Muslim males.

15. In 2002, reporter Daniel Pearl was kidnapped and beheaded by a Muslim male.  (Plus two other American journalists who were beheaded.) 16. In 2013, the Boston Marathon bombing resulted in four innocent people, including a child, being killed and 264 other people injured by 2 Muslim brothers.

Sunday, February 26, 2017

"Violence in Our Country"

Comment... I  don't have a TV but I do watch my favorite shows on the Internet on free TV sites.. I get the news via e-mails of my choice from all the news stations. Been doing that for years.. I notice its getting worse and worse... In fact I delete all the nasty stuff...  Note... All commercial free...Read on below..

                    I think the violence on TV these days stimulates the copycats and the Psychopaths into thinking that they can get away with the things they see on TV or in the movies because they think they are smarter. Did you notice that lately they are putting the most insane things on the TV news? They do this so people will generate more news. In a sense they are reshaping our cultural values.                
                The young people of today are, for the most part not being taught at home or in school. Look at the epidemic of bullying lately. Years ago they learned by limit setting and their parents example. Today it’s the drug addict movie star or some other twisted thing on Facebook or YouTube. They see these things and guess what? Right, they are on the news and you are saying. ”Awww isn’t that a shame…


        The past and today....  In a country run by Lawyers for Lawyers what do you expect... New Laws are being made that circumvent existing laws to fit the crimes of the politicians, the rich and famous or anybody that fits certain profiles and while we are speaking of the past..... Irony is that Charles Julius Guiteau, Assassin of US President James A. Garfield was hanged 1882. He was 40 years old.. He was also a Lawyer..

Friday, February 24, 2017


                        Every once and a while I hear a movie line or a quote that catches my interest. This morning its “They say that every atom in our body was once part of a star“. I took that line from the movie “Gattaca” starring Ethan Hawks and Uma Thurman. It literally prompted me to think on a different level. If you really think about those words. You think of your mom and dad then before your mom and dad. You think back to the country they came from and even before that. You go to your imagination and think about the way, you think the world was. We have all read the history books so we go back through the century’s and even before that. Back to where how you believe the earth was created. I believe God created the earth but according to the scientist or whoever investigates these things that when the earth was created it was by an explosion in space. It could be God that did that? The movie line is true. I often wonder who writes these things and where they get their inspiration? I’m glad I was prompted to think about that. It reminds me of how insignificant we are as humans and when I start to think I am so important I am reminded to step back, take a breath and think how small we really are. The only thing we can do is set an example but after, walk away and without any rewards. We have done what we were supposed do.

Thursday, February 23, 2017


 Just another note....

John Travolta is one of my favorite actors.. "Saturday Night Fever" Wow! What a movie....  This movie with the dancing was special to me because I was a pretty good dancer and would go out and do the things just like this in this movie.. The walk down the street was so cool. I would do that strut and I could almost hear that background music.. The uptight close slow-slow, lips barely a half-inch away from hers, dancing was my favorite... I found many a willing partner to provide the inspiration... In thinking back I had a wonderful beginning to my treasured life...

"Just Thinking"

Comment........I was at a Motel a while ago and watched a daughter smash the window in her Mothers car for to take something to sell for money for drugs.. The cops were there in minutes dragging the kid away kicking and screaming..  The Mom was staying at the Motel trying to hide from her and had left the house (moved out) because she was afraid.. She had a good reason.. This is a very sick world..

Wednesday, February 22, 2017


 I gave someone named Wendy some advice.....

Wendy.... Short lesson here and read between the lines.. They live on our credit.. Rule #1 Never charge anything and only use a debit card if you must use a card.. Always remember you are # one.. Don't worry or think about what (((THEY))) do or say.. Your silence hurts them more than you know... Help the poor if you can.. In your case, smile at a good looken guy.. I always smile a good looken chick... You will feel better.... Positive thinking is another thing that hurts them.. Thank you Windy for the feed back... I'm smiling at you....

"Govenor D. Malloy"

Just a note.....

Governor Malloy From Connecticut has no management or people skills and is unsympathetic to the poor. He feeds on money making and greed. He is bought and paid for by business and pretends to care but is shallow and ignorant. You can see right through him. I'm sure investigating him you will find some kind of corruption.. He is not a very bright person.. He got caught a while ago smuggling drugs past security to his son at Bradley Airport. He laughingly brushed this off as a mistake. If it was you or me we would be in Jail. His time will come... 


   Just a note.........               

 Violence on TV stimulates the copycats and the Psychopaths into thinking that they can get away with the things they see on TV or in the movies because they think they are smarter. Did you notice that lately they are putting the most insane things on the TV news? They do this so people will generate more news. In a sense they are reshaping cultural values. The young people of today are, for the most part not being taught at home or in school. Look at the epidemic of bullying lately. Years ago they learned by limit setting and their parents example. Today it’s the drug addict movie star or some other twisted thing on Facebook or YouTube. They see these things and guess what? Right, they are on the news and you are saying. ”Awww isn’t that a shame…

Tuesday, February 21, 2017


I remember the Eddie Fisher, Debbie Reynolds, Elizabeth Taylor scandal.. Yes some of these entertainers died before their time but look at their lifestyle. Drinking alcohol, Drugs and more drugs.. Money and drugs.. Trying to buy Happiness.. It will never end..  "Always keep in mind when you drink Alcohol, use drugs or smoke cigarettes that life has an expiration date." -  12/5/2013 L.J Ferrari

Monday, February 20, 2017


            There have been protests for the last 240 years.. Give or take a few years...Yes, they can see and hear you better now with all your phone cameras. However, none of your protests will work.. They will do what they want anytime they want... They don't care about you, me or anybody. Its all about the money.. Money is power. You and me are peons. Get a job, go to school do the best you can.. These days again with all the cameras they will know who you are.. Think of your future, keep a low profile and get off the Government tab.. Do not let them know who you are! Doing all the things you are doing will never work....It never has...

Saturday, February 4, 2017


 There is something about killing an innocent animal that is wrong. Keeping the population in check .. Why? Are they eating to much? killing too many humans? Not enough room for them? Here is an example. There are too many humans. If you have enough money you can kill a select few. Say 50,000 Black people have to go because they eat too much. 25,000 Spanish people must be killed because there is no room for them to live.. Just like all those defenseless creatures. Why? Do research on Slaughter houses... Oh I forgot, you have to eat...They kill those animals not save them! They kill them to be able to brag about it..  Those Hunters losers and yes they are losers that think they are brave and macho. < I can still say that.. They are wanna-be cops or soldiers that couldn't past the test so they put on pretend camouflage clothes to kill harmless creatures that can't shoot back. The fact is they are bed-wetter cowards with visions of grandeur. They were never taught to be careful because believe me here, what goes around comes around.